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Session #108 – October 9, 1988
Gloria’s Circle
Present: Betty Welty, Jean Chisholm, Jnana Sivananda, Owen Cramer, Peter
Valiton, and Sidney Smith.
Meeting opened with an invocation for the healing energies directed to our absent
members and loved ones. This was followed by the usual three AUMs, invocations, and
guided meditation by Sidney
Sheariam: Good morning students. And so it is that we come once again together
to further your growth and to give instruction. Did you indeed take seriously the
assignment with regard to touching, to cuddling, nurturing? (Several positive
responses. “It was fun.” “It certainly gives other people another sense of you.”) Indeed.
And does it not also give you another sense of you? (Several “Yes” responses. “And it
restores health and joy.”) Can one be healthy, joyful, if these needs are not met?
(No’s.) But on the whole, in your current social activity, do you give ordinarily
sufficient time for such activity? (“No..” “Never enough.”) And that is particularly so
in this culture in which you have incarnated.
There are those cultures upon this globe who see to the satisfaction of that
“need” as an ordinary part of daily living and are the healthier more balanced for it.
You have social mores, social inhibitors, preventing you from fulfilling that “need”,
and you must, then, with awareness, take measures to fill that “need” if you are to
be healthy, healthy in mind and in heart, for if you are not healthy in mind and in
your heart, your physical organism cannot be healthy.
One of your beloved members is absent from your circle this day because
that “need” is not being met. She, above all, requires more nurturing by virtue of
the Wheel of Karma. By choices made in the past, she has come this time to bring
integration to many personalities, which takes mothering to accomplish. In her
recent transition from a social ambiance, she has allowed to drop away, and
rightfully so, certain support systems, and has not found replacement for them, and
she should be able to do so in your Hadiki consciousness.
You must, if you wish your sister well, not merely love her with your mind
and with your heart, but with your hands, with your arms, with your bodies. Hold
her. Cuddle her. Do not mourn with her, but give her your joy.
Myra: At this moment she can’t sit up. She’s at my house, so when I go home,
I’ve nurtured her and loved her, but not nearly enough, I’m sure, after what your words
have said. But is that sufficient to get her up on her feet? Is there anything else that she
needs to do, too? (Use Silverthistle techniques to assist the subtle bodies back into
alignment, to support the carbon body. When the carbon body can withstand the
pressure of touch, she should be cradled.) Thank you. She’ll appreciate that help.
Owen: We talked about her consumption of milk. Is milk particularly a problem
for her? (Indeed so. Allergies are now setting up from which she suffers.)
Myra: Are the allergies contributing to the pneumonia problem? (And the pain.)
Owen: Are there other bits of advice on diet or whatever we could give her that
would help her. (Acidic juices and some with sugar, such as natural sugars as in
grape juice.)
Myra: She should take these juices? (Yes.)
Betty: There are herbal teas which are to help to decongest. Would they be
helpful at this time? (Congestion is not the primary problem. There is great irritation
of the nerve endings.) The doctors said pneumonia. Is that accurate, or is there
something else? (That is a complication, but not the basic problem.)
Myra: What is the basic problem? (What I have just given.) Would you
recommend that she stay in bed at my house for several days, weeks maybe? (Yes. She
should not be alone.) She knew that last night.
Sheariam: Now to address the sprained ankle. That one is facing a need to do, to
perform something she does not wish to do. The psyche is telling her so. The ankle
will heal rapidly, but will again be injured if she does not decide to change her
plans.
Jnana: Do you know which plans specifically you’re referring to? (That is not
within my purview. It is her decision, and she knows.)
Myra: We are so blessed to have you help us with this insight. Thank you so
much.
Sheriam: We have so little time and so much to accomplish. Let us address
Identity as it relates to Status. This is particularly important to both the sprained
ankle and the pain and infection. One identifies one’s self answering that “need”
within the Desire Body through certain Statuses. Those expectancies which one
teaches others about one’s self are for the primary goal of “identification”. If an
individual does not see the reflection of the personality in the eyes and heart and
actions of another, that individual feels insignificant, unidentified. It is a natural
function of the human Quality to project personality in such a way as to create
“expectations” on the part of others. It is those “expectations” which establish the
relationship between the individual and another. That relationship may be that of
family, friend, lover, foe. Any kind of interaction resulting from Union is naturally
When a Union is established, it involves a “contract”, the terms of which may
be dictated by those involved in the Union and by the common consent of those
members of the social culture. “Custom” grows out of mutual “expectations”.
“Tradition” results from the fulfilling of those “expectations”, and repeating that
fulfillment which does not make it correct. “Tradition” is not necessarily “right”.
Because something is a “Custom”, either individually or societally, does not make it
“right”.
Now enforcement of Status, or the retention of certain status, may be enacted
through what one possesses or controls. “Money”, for instance, which seems to be so
powerful in your society, is in fact not even a reality. Only in a symbolical sense does
it have reality. “Money” is merely an agreement, a custom, a tradition, a means by
which exchange may be made indirectly, but it has a great deal to do with Identity
with Space, Union and Status, “needs” of the Desire Body which must be fulfilled
and gratified.
“Money” is a concept. It is neither good nor bad, it simply is. Only in the use
or misuse of it does it become a negative or positive influence. The one who uses
such a powerful tool to promote ends which are not gratifying the “needs” in the
desire Bodies of all who comprise the society is ultimately destroying his own
Identity. One becomes identified as the effort. The I Am becomes obscured.
Now, one may make great strides in your society by acquisition of “money”
or a multitude of things that manifest “money thought”, or the power represented
thereby. In doing so, Status is created which may or may not be filled. Often one’s
Identity, obscured by the power of acquisition and control, is lost, but Status
becomes filled with hangers-on, because a false Status is established. Expectations
are unrealistic and usually unfulfilled. Union is accomplished or established with
non-productive entities. If contracts are not clear, the terms may not be fulfilled.
They may be exploited.
Now as I speak, I seem to be addressing a certain commercial level of your
society, but that is only in one aspect. What I have said can be brought down to the
lowliest of individuals, to he who has few aspirations, a foreshortened view of the
future, very little sense of I Am-ness, and still this pertains. You have many now in
your society who seem not to have Space: homeless, hungry, without attachment,
with no certainty of the future, almost disembodied insofar as your culture is
concerned. Yet some of the least of these have stronger sense of I Am-ness and unity
with a universe that transcends occupation of a planet.
One of the emotional responses that stems from Status is that of “pity”. I
speak not of compassion, but “pity”. When “pity” is a response, there is that Status
which says, “Thee are less than me.” And can that be true if all is I Am?
One major evidence of Identity is the carbon body which you wear. That
carbon body is a direct out-picturing of the sense of Identity brought with the
incarnating Self. When you hold negative thoughts about the body, the carbon body,
you are denying the I Am-ness of your Entity Self. Every adjective which you can
use about the carbon body serves only to describe the incarnating entity. When one
expresses dislike for one’s carbon body, one is denying the I Am-ness of his entity.
You are to love all parts. An opinion that one part or another of the carbon body is
unattractive is because you have accepted an expectation built upon cultural
considerations. Your carbon bodies are as beautiful as any part of you, and that
beauty has nothing to do with cultural or societal expectations.
Now if you make Union in any relationship with another that holds any part
of your carbon body in disregard, you have made a misalliance. You do not insist
that your Self live up to the illusionary expectations of societal fad. This is also true
of your responses and your mode of thought, your method of communication, the
style with which you live your life. To satisfy these four Basic Needs of the Desire
Body totally, satisfactorily, productively, you must manifest your intrinsic, unique
Self-hood, not in the reactions to the expectations that have been built culturally.
Clothing, hair style, role in the family and social circumstances should be dictated
by the Self and not by the culture entirely.
If your body is not comfortable, then you cannot think clearly nor feel the
rhythm of your life. (Sidney blows his nose. Sheariam turns toward him.) Congestion,
such as you suffer from now is because you have built a life based on expectations
which are not real. Look to the reality of yourself. Look to where you are
uncomfortable. Look to where you are restricted, restrained. Be yourself and love
yourself, and you will not suffer from that congestion.
Now, you have been given tasks, and we have discussed one briefly. Do you
have others to discuss? (Some silence.) You have not performed them?
Sidney: I think most of us have discussed them and worked on them. Jean
stimulated some interest in that. On the way over this morning we were looking at
“expectations”, and Jean and I discussed with each other what we expected from each
other, and then analyzed it in terms of how we thought it applied to ourselves. I
personally went back to my childhood to pick up early expectations to see how that has
influenced my life both then and as an adult, and looked at some current expectations. I
can’t say that I’ve arrived at a definite conclusion yet, but at least I have looked at the
expectations.
(In discussing the “expectations” between the two of you, did you examine
them from the perspective of having taught the other person to have them?) We did
to some degree, yes. But I think that both of us were telling the other whether or not the
expectations the other person had of us were consistent with our belief as to the way we
really were. That’s what we were doing. Jean can shed some light from her point of view.
Jean: I find that most of the way people reflected to me was things that I have
done, and sometimes the person said that my house was always tidy. Well, my living
room is, the rest isn’t. But they stay mostly in the living room, so they don’t see the rest.
So most of the things that people reflected to me were things that I had worked on or do
consciously. Sometimes there are some expectations that come from that person which
are not realistic, according to me. (And what do you do about the unrealistic
expectations?)
Well, finally I have begun to realize that is their expectations. I do not have to
fulfill it, if it’s unrealistic for me from my point of view, but I do try to adjust to it and
not make them feel uncomfortable. (And have you examined the possibility that you
taught them to expect that?) That I adjust to them? (That you implanted the basis for
the expectation.) I’ll have to think about that. Are you saying that I implanted the
expectation that I would give them more than I’m willing to give them? (Possibly more,
possibly some kind of activity, some kind of response.) I’ll have to think about that.
Sidney: I certainly can see that relationship to my ten-year-old son, where for
many years I would do certain things for him. Then it comes time to say, “Now you’re on
your own”, but the expectancy is there, and I can see very clearly that I taught it to him.
Myra: The mother who allows her little exploring baby to go out and play with
the telephone and the buttons on the TV and the stove when he’s too little to know what
they are, then when it comes along and she wants him to quit doing it, she’s very upset
that he’s still playing with the telephone and the TV and the stove. So she has really
taught him that it’s OK to do that. So she needs to know that this is not ever to be
allowed, if she’s not going to let him do it in the future.
That came to me last night when I was in the emergency room with Jenika,
because this lady was saying she wished she hadn’t let her kid do that, but I was thinking
that with myself all the way through. As a child I loved playing teacher and playing
school. So when it was time for me to go off to college, everyone thought, “Myra’s going
to be a teacher”. I was in my rebellious state and I said, “They’re not telling me what to
do”, so I refused to go into Education. I graduated from college in Business, and I was a
horrible flop. I was the only person that got a job in Business, but my boss finally said,
“Myra, you’d make a great teacher”. So I went back to college to get my teaching
credentials. I had rebelled against their expectations of me. (But you had placed the
expectations there.)
Yeah, that was sort of a circuitous kind of rebellion, but I guess I didn’t rebel like
kids do today, taking drugs, etc. But I certainly did plant it there, and I was meant to be a
teacher. That’s what God sent me to do, but I fought it.
Jean: I’m aware of another place where I thought that I wasn’t good enough and
what I did wasn’t good enough. My failures have come from that feeling that I wasn’t
good enough. It’s taken me a long time to find out that some of the things I produced
were good enough. Now I’m beginning to value myself more.
Sheariam: Yes. As you teach others to expect, others teach you to expect, and
that is not limited to the expectations of another’s behavior, but the expectation of
one’s own productivity. From the very earliest Union of mother and child, the child
begins to have expectation implanted. As adults in growing awareness, you are now
in a position to begin to examine where your Identity has been shapen for you by the
expectations you have been taught to have.
This then leads us to your “capacity” to know your own Space. Only you can
determine your own Space.
Myra: You really can’t do a very good job of it unless you know who you are.
When you have that knowingness. “I’m a teacher”, for instance. Then you can pursue the
goal to create the Space that really is yours. (Correct.) But if you don’t know it, you
flounder around. That’s why there is a lot of confusion.
Jean: It’s taken me a long time to recognize that some of the things that I did a
long time ago have influence much later. I was not aware that what I was doing at the
time would have as far-reaching influence. For instance, I taught a child to recognize the
weather signs and the names of clouds and what it meant. I ran into her much later, and
she showed me her child could do it. So what I had taught had been passed on. When I
see my grandchildren, I see them doing some things that I’m not aware I had taught them,
but they are doing it. I recognize that has come, or maybe they have told me that I taught
them. So lots of times I have not actually been aware of that, but sometimes I’ve done it
consciously. (This is what we have attempted to convey to your realization for this
long, long time. The consequences of the merest wispy thought reach far from you.
(Said almost in a whisper.))
I’ve become conscious of that. I’ve been very much more careful of my thoughts
and my behavior, but in a sense I’ve become freer too, because I know that I have the
ability to change, to an extent, what’s going to happen
Myra: I have an example of an expectation being annoying. My husband, for
years and years, has been an accommodator. He’s always put himself out to do what’s
expected, to create what everybody wants. He now has decided he wants out of that. He’s
always been the guy that publishes newsletters for everybody. So the other day somebody
was planning a big to-do, and they said, “Well, Nestor will make the flyers, so tell Nestor
what he’s supposed to do.” Well, the time for that came down to the wire, and he didn’t
have the information. He got really mad. “Why do they expect me to do this?” And I said,
“Honey, did you program them to expect you to do this?” So I asked him to read the
paragraph in the last transcription. It was a perfect description of what he had done, and I
said, “When are you going to inform them that you’re not there anymore?” He still can’t
do it. (Because he does not have sufficient Self Identity.) Exactly, but it’s coming.
(Status has dictated Identity for him.) And he’s growing in that self-awareness now.
Thank God. (To be truly self-identified, you must occupy the throne of your own
Status. You must be more important to yourself than you are to others, or you
cannot be one with them. To be in total Unity, you must be equal. You cannot be
equal if you do not occupy your own seat of power.)
Jean: That goes contrary to much of my early teaching, and I think much of the
Christian early teaching, that you must be humble, you must be self-sacrificing, you must
be a martyr, and to really be good, you must give up.
Myra: It’s completely opposite to what we’ve been taught all our lives.
Sidney: We’ve been taught that Self is not the important thing. It’s to be
denigrated. Maybe you can elaborate on Self and Divine Will a little bit, momentarily.
I’m sure you have before, but dwell for a moment on these teachings of ours.
Sheariam: As unique manifestations of the human Quality, you are also unique
manifestations of The Absolute. Your definition is based on beginning and end,
which is first manifested at Omega Point. All else grows out of that manifestation of
“is-ness” at Omega Point.
Bringing that down to your current culture, the teaching of sublimation of
will to that of some hierarchy of church-hood, is inculcated only in recent time. In a
little over 1000 of your earthly years, a hierarchy of human power structure has
been taught. You have been given expectations. These are taught. If you relate
directly to that Divinity, that first manifestation of “Is-ness”, there is no hierarchy
of human Quality between you and It!
When you vow “I Will Divine Will”, you are avowing that you expect
yourself to be a manifestation of The Absolute in finiteness. Does that sound like it is
necessary to kill one’s Self off?
Why, then, would you be taught such expectations, if it were not to sustain
the Status of another manifestation? In avowing “I Am:, Khamael, you are making
that statement of emergence from The Absolute, that you are the finest, most
essential manifestation that is, was, and ever shall be. “I AM.” When you avow “I
Will”, you avow “I am all that I am intended to be” in expression in this personality,
one minute portion thereof, but perfect in totality.
Self which has produced the personality, needs other such manifestations to keep
itself reminded that it is a part of The Whole.)
Betty: This is what I seem to have come up with, that I have put myself in a
lifetime in relationships to others, that ultimately I must depend on my connection to
what I’d always call God, or the Divine, rather than any other relationship. It seems like
I’ve found that those relationships were essentially built like a house on sand, whereas all
these relationships force me to say, “What is my relationship to The Divine, and where is
my connection, my dependency and my salvation?” (What is that permanent
connection? That is what you seek to know. It exists. It is and all other relationships
are temporary. They are Unions based upon the driving “need” of the Desire Body
which is temporal. In your realization of your “I Am” connection, that is your
eternality. That is the thrust of Life. That is your creativity. That is your power.
That is your Rod. All else falls away.)
If the fulfilling of the “needs’ of the Desire Body, of Identity in this human
condition, of Status and Space, and so forth, if this seems shaky, is that a method we have
set up to force us into that ultimate identity? (Yes. All of your circumstances, all of
your activities, all of your manifestations, are merely illusions specifically designed
to push you back to that realization of your own Divinity, of your direct connection
with The Absolute.)
Jean: In a meditation recently, it seemed to me that I realized that my Purpose in
Life was to reach back to the Divinity, and everything else that I thought was purpose
seemed to fall away. (That was indeed a moment of Truth.)
Betty: I haven’t framed it well yet, but if we help others and children to fulfill the
“needs” of the Desire Body, and ourselves, does that hasten their process and help them?
(If you do with the clarity that does not place your expectations on them.)
The expectations being to fulfill a role model, the expectations for them to take
the responsibility for their choices, would be valid. (That would be valid.) The teaching
to respond, rather than to react would be valid? (That would be valid.) To go with their
inner desires to fulfill their “needs”? (With respect for others’ Space.) And then, again,
the question of “where is another’s Space and where is your Space?” I guess that will
take a lifetime to figure out.
Myra: You can’t impose on others. They have their rights, too.
Betty: But what is imposing and what is not imposing? (There is no easy
answer. You are always in process, finding answers is part of the process. We
cannot spoon-feed you. We cannot make your decisions. We cannot invade your
lives in that manner.
Yet if we are all One, it seems like trying to design a Space and saying, “Hey, I
feel stepped on” is contrary to that philosophy of “One-ness”. (Not in the portion of
manifestation which now speaks. That incarnating entity which has produced that
personality has placed ever-more-restrictive confines around activity. This
incarnation under the Law of Dominance is part of the process. If this were not so,
you would not be asking the questions you now ask. They would not pertain under
some other law. They truly apply to all of you, here, in this planet, under the Law of
Dominance, insofar as that portion now manifests in this personality.)
Myra: Last time, Sheariam, we had quite a discussion about Hadiki and the plan
we need to prepare for the end of the year. In studying the last session, several members
of our group got together and made up some questions. Could I ask you those questions
now? (We would ask you to prioritize. The organism grows restive.) There are quite a
few, so I will.
Betty: Could I ask one question first, very personal? I’m having trouble with help
with my vision. It seems I’ve broken glasses and made decisions and so forth. Could you
give me any help as to what would be a good procedure to do now? What’s happening
behind this? What am I setting up? Could you make recommendations? In other words, I
got contacts, but I seem to have a lot of problems. (Metaphysically, in your processing,
frightening for you to face. You prefer not to see them.) I assumed such. (As far as
the carbon body is concerned, you can assist it with those food substances which are
tissue-building to prevent deterioration of the eyeball matter.) Such as? (Royal Jelly,
for one. There are many.)
Jean: May I ask one? You told us to find something to meditate, and I found a
gift from the sea, which is a float with water inside of it. It seemed to me that was the
thing. The riddle is, “How does the water get inside of this ball?” I wondered, is this what
I was supposed to find?” (That is an excellent beginning.) Thank you.
Myra: In talking about the coming changes, they are noticing in that last session,
it sounded as if we were going to have to leave our homes when the big events happen.
(Some of you.) Some will. How will we know? Will the homes be damaged, or will we
have a warning of who should go? (We shall do the best we can to make contact, and
your own common sense.) Do you have any idea of what the dangers would be in
remaining in our homes? (Lack of water, lack of utilities, hygienic procedure,
invasion by those who would have what they think you have.) Will all of the Portland
area be affected? (Not merely Portland.) Could you elaborate? Seattle? San Francisco?
Los Angeles?
Sheariam: Please, that depends, as before given, on the consciousness of the
masses and the intensity with which the individual regards such with fear. The more
you dwell upon this, the more you generate fear, the more certain you are to have it
brought to you. If you surround yourselves with joy, faith, trust in the goodness of
the Universe to care for its own, you can do much to offset, for yourselves, the worst
consequences.
Sidney: So it would be better for us to plan for a fun and festive ten-day camping
retreat. (Good suggestion.)
Sheariam: Now we must withdraw. There is too much discomfort. We will ask
you to spend a few moments in silent meditation. We will not be able to lead this
morning. We bid you go in joy and peace.
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