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Session #136 - February 25 – 27, 1994
NETSOK FELLOWSHIP RETREAT -- QUEST FOR THE SACRED SELF
Present: Jean Chisholm, Owen and Maxine Cramer, Clista McPherson, Marianne Reece,
Vivian Rice, Joan Schultze, Jnana Sivananda and Phyllis Miller, Sidney Smither, Betty
Welty, Gayla and Len Ramska (from California), Kim and Jeff Ramska (from Idaho), and
Gloria Ruth Rivers.
(Location: In Cascade Locks, Oregon in the Columbia Gorge at Shahala At the Locks, a
spacious residence converted to a bed-and-breakfast inn with a great view of the
Columbia River and mountains to the north. Some 10 inches of snow covered the ground
and trees when we arrived. The drive and parking area had been plowed.)
Friday Night
GLORIA: (after a few moments of silence) Let's open with the invocation of
Khamael, "I am the disciplined force of the Absolute", Gabriel, "I will Divine will", and
Ratziel, "Divine Ideation brings me all I need to know". That's what this weekend is all
about -- what you individually need to know. (invocations and affirmations done in
unison) Now declare it for yourself -- "I declare it so for me". (done) Bring your hands
together and seal it in.
This weekend has been in the making for months and months and months. The Teachers
have been giving me life lessons of my own, they've been giving me information. The
information didn't always tie together; I didn't always understand. I just knew that it was
important. They've been talking to me about COMMITMENT and about FLOW. Some
major issues of my life recently have tested my commitment to whatever, and my
capacity or capability to stay in the flow of my life. So I said, "What's it all about? What
are we doing here?" And they reminded me that some of our major last lessons on the
Wheel (of Karma) had to do with how we in race consciousness at this time are working
at the Instinctual Level. We react, we respond, re-this and re-that and re-something else.
When, in actual fact, if we are going to make it possible for NETSOK, we have to start
working on PURPOSE. We have to live our lives on PURPOSE.
How do you know how you can live your life on PURPOSE when you don't know what
your purpose is? We wander around in our lives struggling to do the best we can with
what we have. We wonder, "What am I doing here? What is the reason for all this? I
don't understand." And that's where most people are. But we're not going to make it
possible for Netsok to arrive if we don't get on with our path, if we don't start living on
PURPOSE, so that what we do is purposefully done, and not just in response to whatever
comes our way.
If an emergency arises and you're not prepared, you can always respond to it; you can't
take purposeful action if you're not ready. It doesn't matter whether you know what the
emergency is. It doesn't matter whether you know what comes tomorrow. If you're living
on Purpose, you will be ready to take the necessary action, and not just simply respond or
react. Because when you are re-something -- reacting, responding or whatever -- you are
repeating, you are applying the old programs, the old tapes. You are letting your buttons
be pushed, and you get mad, and you get upset. And then maybe you binge or maybe
you shop, or maybe you sleep, or maybe you get distressed, or maybe you just simply go
around and hit the wall. Whatever it is that you do in reaction is not on Purpose. You
say "Why did I do that? Why did I do anything so foolish? Why did I waste my
energy?" If you're ready, if you're living your life on Purpose, you won't be wasting your
time or your energy or your substance.
Now remember the Teachers told us that we have a QUANTUM OF LIFE. We have a
given portion of life that is ours to do with from the cradle to the grave. And within that
quantum we have the capacity to QUANTIFY OUR QUALITY. So we have to decide,
"Do we want quality of life?" and "What is quality of life for us?"
QUALITY OF LIFE is living now in all parts of your being, as close to 100% as you can
muster. Now, if you look back on your life -- and many of us do -- we look back and we
say "Gee, I'm sorry I did that. I don't understand how I could have made such a terrible
mistake." And we feel the need to make restitution, to repay, to flagellate ourselves in
our guilt. If you're living your life every moment on PURPOSE, you're doing the very
best your RATIO OF VOLITION TO CONSCIOUSNESS allows you to do, then there
can be no recrimination. You're not doing anything wrong. You're doing the best that
you can do. You can always do at any given time what the ratio of your Volition to
Consciousness allows you to do. But most of us do not do that well. Most of us know a
lot better than we do. How many times do you say to yourself, "I know better than that. I
can do better than that!"?
Now, we recriminate ourselves for our shortcomings. So we also have to incorporate in
our "on purposefulness" FORGIVENESS. And forgiveness begins at home; CHARITY
begins at home. When we are told by our biblical friends that charity is the greatest of all
virtues, we're not talking about feeding the poor, or giving sleeping bags to the homeless,
or adopting foreign orphans, or any of that kind of thing. We're talking about forgiveness
-- charitable thought and feelings is forgiveness.
Break "forgive" down. “For” -- ahead of, and give. So you "give ahead of". If you love
as you are capable of loving, then you do not punish the one that you love. If you love
yourself, then you are not going to punish yourself.
So one of the things we're going to examine in this workshop will be our
COMMITMENT. We're going to examine what we believe our commitments to be, and
hopefully find out what they really are. And you may find some real surprises. I was
amazed, very surprised when I did the exercise that the Teachers gave me, because I
thought, "Yeah, I'm committed. I have committed myself to take care of my mother.
Right? Am I really that committed?" Some people say, "I'm committed to my marriage".
Are you really? Or are you committed to what that does for you? Are you committed to
the security of it, the reinforcement of it, the knowing that there is a haven when you get
in trouble? We're also going to be talking about FLOW, and as your program says to you,
we're also going to be talking about the characteristics of an INITIATE, because our
Teachers told us in the beginning that they were from the Temple of Initiation. So what
does INITIATION mean? We have been taught by various sources that an INITIATE is
a super being of sorts, has occult knowledge that is not commonly available to
everybody, and that one must go through certain trials to prove one's self worthy of the
next step. So we're going to examine what we believe an initiate to be, and maybe clearly
identifying to ourselves what we as initiates on the path want to be and what our
COMMITMENTS are, and how those commitments relate to our own initiation.
One of the movements that is afoot today, according to what the Teachers tell me, is a
speed up of the quantification of quality, and is approaching the time that if mankind does
not make way for NETSOK, we are going to get something we don't want. As you will
remember in the lessons, LUCIFER is the other side of MICHAEL. Lucifer is the
bringer of light. Early sulfur matches were called "lucifers" for good reason. The light
that is brought by the back side of Michael is that cruel domination that destroys ego,
destroys self identification, destroys sense of self worth, takes away all the things that we
treasure. (Note: Energy as light can be used cruelly. On its own, it’s neither good nor
bad.)
Every one of us has incarnated into the United States of America because it was the only
place in the world at the time of our incarnation that offered us the opportunity for
freedom that we need for what we came to do. That's fast disappearing with the
corruption, the dis-information, the governmental invasion of our private lives. If we are
going to live on PURPOSE so that we can move from PURPOSE to WILL to
MOTIVATION to WANT to THOUGHT and on around, if we are going the make the
HUMAN QUALITY all that it has the capability of being, we've got to get on the road.
We've got to start doing something about exercise of DOMINANCE over others rather
than over self.
So as we quest for the SACRED SELF, we are looking for that dominating self that
minds its business, that lives its life on PURPOSE, and does not lose energy and
substance and extraneous non-essential and destructive enterprises. So let's talk for a
minute. Let me hear from you what you think what an Initiate is. What do you think a
characteristic of an Initiate would be?
BETTY: Bruises. (laughter)
JNANA: Simply speaking, one who starts.
GLORIA: Alright, that is a definition of the word, initiate. How do you relate that
to PURPOSE?
JNANA: Theoretically, you have a purpose, and then you start fulfilling that
purpose.
GLORIA: Alright. We know that we're not one dimensional. What's another
dimension of an initiate?
JNANA: Generally there is a teacher or a guide.
GLORIA: What is there in the person though that calls the teacher? What is it
that makes you ready for the teacher to appear?
MAXINE: Desire.
GLORIA: Good going, Maxine. What's key number one? ASPIRATION. Now
you've got a hint as to where to go with this thing. What are some other characteristics of
an Initiate?
STUDENTS: Determination. Commitment.
GLORIA: Determination has some implications. Determination can be self-
propelling, or it can be other-dominating. So it is how the characteristic is used.
MAXINE: Commitment is better than determination?
GLORIA: Yes. And along with commitment then, if you want to talk about
determination, what's another word that goes with commitment that brings determination
in? Persistence, hanging in there, staying with it, never losing faith. There is a very
important characteristic about the initiate in which all of us fail and fail sometimes very
miserably. And that is the area of SELF DOUBT. If you have even the minutest thread
of self doubt, you have built in failure.
GAYLA: Is that like saying "I'm trying" instead of saying "I'm doing"?
GLORIA: That's right. "I will Divine will", not "I'll try Divine Will". I will!
Now another thing that the initiate does not do to him or herself is to set deadlines. You
set yourself up for failure when you set a deadline. That doesn't mean that you don't have
guidelines, or goals.
Have any of you read Dr. Wayne Dyer's book called The Real Magic? Dr. Dyer is a
student of Dr. Deepak Chopra, but is not as occult in what he says as Chopra. They're
both divine studies. What they have to say is very important. But I would like to read to
you something that Dr. Dyer said about commitment:
"If you are committed to your own personal highest power" -- (now those are his words
for what we call the SACRED SELF.) "then a great amount of authentic universal power
will begin moving through you. It may in fact be symbolized by the arrival of money or
other type of material evidence into your life, and then you are forced to resolve your
ambivalence about your worthiness." I'm paraphrasing rather than reading exactly. But
that's what we are talking about.
We get all this wonderful inspiration, get together like this, and we talk about all these
wonderful things, and we leave a workshop just really hyped and eager to get on with our
lives and do these wonderful things. And three days down the road we get smacked
between the eyeballs with something that we didn't expect, that we're not prepared for,
and we drop right back into the old "what if", "I can't", "why", "so-and-so won't let me",
"forgive me for failure, I'm trying". If that isn't a manipulative device, and how many
times I've used it -- "I'm sorry Mom, I'm trying." We all do it. And that's where
forgiveness comes in.
OK. So you failed the test. That doesn't mean that you can't pass the next time, because
believe it or not, life is going to give you another chance -- maybe tomorrow, maybe next
month, maybe next minute. There is one thing that you can always count on -- there will
be CHANGE. This too shall pass. And sometimes things that you want to hang onto
change too rapidly, and things that you wish would go away, hang around far too long.
But if you're living on PURPOSE, you can gain advantage out of every situation. You
will create miracles in your life. Any time that you believe that you do not have
something that you think you need, you are committed to not having it. (STARTLED
STUDENT: Say that again. [laughter]) (Note: You take in only that which reinforces
your belief. Anything contrary, you don’t even see.)
OK. Is there anyone in this room that does not believe there is something they want that
they do not have? Everyone here wants something they do not have. (Jean wants a
bedside table for her word processor so she can write with it in bed.)
You can have it for free. (Jean accepts that.) Did you hear the implication, "That would
be fine, but I don't believe it's going to happen"? We do this all the time. We program
ourselves with "what if, what if". We say, "but how can it be different tomorrow from
what it was yesterday?" And yet it is different, it always changes. Nothing is ever the
same. You're not the same; you're a couple of days older. You've lost a million skin cells
and grown a few hairs, and maybe lost a tooth or a toenail. You're not the same. You
won't be the same tomorrow morning when you get up as when you go to bed tonight.
But we don't think about that change. We think, "Oh, this is going to go on. It's going to
be the same tomorrow as it was yesterday." And we tend to look at things with -- what's
the opposite of optimism -- pessimism. There is a very good reason for that. We chose
to incarnate under the LAW OF DOMINANCE. We chose to live our lives in a
negatively charged atmosphere.
BETTY: Maybe we didn't choose; maybe we were sent.
GAYLA: But you accepted. We couldn't learn the things that we need or choose
to learn if we weren't here at this time and this place.
GLORIA: Then we need to get our PURPOSE and learn it. That's what we are
talking about -- being "on Purpose". Do things “on Purpose”. Recognize that things that
you do inadvertently, according to the way that you look at them, you do them on
Purpose. It was done on Purpose based on self doubt, lack of desire to succeed, bound
and determined to fail. We're programmed for that. Our atmosphere is full of it. Our
whole ionic charge is negative. How hard, how purposefully, how persistently we have
to use the one power that we've got to positively charge ourselves. We cannot positively
charge anyone else. We can give moral support, we can give mental encouragement, we
can give spiritual advice, support, anything, but we can't do it for the other person. Each
of us has to do it for ourselves. And that is probably the most difficult thing for us to
grasp and accept.
I remember when Silverthistle gave us the eighth key, SINGULARITY, and told us how
lonely it is on the top of a mountain, that you might be disliked for what you are and what
you think and what you do, that you might be vilified for it. And all of us are
programmed mentally and emotionally and genetically to want love and affection and to
be liked. We constantly seek validity. One of the main characteristics of an INITIATE is
that he or she finds validity within him or herself. The only validation the initiate
requires is the SACRED SELF.
As human beings we try to live a spiritual life. We've got to turn that around. We've got
to be spiritual beings living a human life. You've got to be spiritual beings first and
human beings second. And I'll tell you the few experiences that I've had where I have
come very, very close to beings of the higher realms, the love and -- the only word I can
think of is absorption -- that is present in that kind of connection outweighs anything that
you can experience here in this earthly realm. There is nothing here that is like it. But
the initiate lives so close to those realms that it's like reaching up just like a child will
reach up for a hug. And that is there, but we live our lives down here in this miasma of
negativism, and do not recognize that that's always there for us, right now. And the more
you begin to live your life on PURPOSE, the more readily available is that kind of
support, because it's there. The Teachers have told us time and again, it's there.
And some of you recognize when you have an experience that demonstrates that to you,
but it doesn't come often enough. You need to begin to experience that more often,
recognize it more often, enjoy that more often. And when you enjoy that connection with
the SACRED SELF, that open communication with the Sacred Self, then you can put joy
into the atmosphere around you, and other people are blessed by it. In that way you can
help them overcome the negative atmosphere in which they live. You can't change the
way they think, but you can give them that kind of support, and it isn't physical support.
Because, for that time that you are putting out that joy, you are changing, actually
changing the electric charge of the atmosphere around you. That's why a group of people
like this can heat up this room just with the power of your minds to where it would be so
hot in here that none of us would want to stay. Or we could make it so cold that no one
would want to stay. You have no concept at this point what power you have in your
minds. And the INITIATE has grasped that concept. The initiate may not use all of the
power of the mind, but the initiate has grasped the concept that anything is possible,
anything is possible.
OK. Anybody got any more suggestions for initiate characteristics?
JEAN: When you were doing this I recalled a funeral I recently went to. I had
known this person as "Wormy". At the funeral the people who spoke about him showed
me an entirely different side. He had been very influential in the state in making things
happen. He worked under ground, working quietly. This gave me a whole different
concept.
Though I don't like to, I went alone. When I came home I decided I'd change this
"loneness". So I gave each one of my children and grandchildren a valentine with some
money with the message "Love is money in time. I'd like to have a good time with you to
bring about a memory, and do it before June 15." A week later I had the first return -- a
date to go house looking with my son and daughter-in- law. We had a wonderful time.
But I had to ask for it. My purpose was to build more happy times. At the funeral it
came out that his family didn't know how wonderful he was -- they only knew the
"Wormy" side.
GLORIA: That's true -- in marriage, in business partnerships, in employer-
employee relationships, in friendships -- you never know the inner person of the other
person. Only you have access to the sacred room. Everyone that you relate with will
find different space about you. No two people's opinion of you will be the same. And
the INITIATE is a complete mystery to everyone.
One of the very first rules -- now, we're not talking about laws; we're talking about rules -
- that an initiate lives by is to be silent. Now what does that mean? We recognize that
we need to communicate, we need to exchange ideas or there would never be any human
progress.
GAYLA: Does that mean knowing when to speak and when not to?
GLORIA: If you don't have something helpful, beneficial, and loving to say, be
still and know. To be free, to be absolutely, totally non dominated by anyone but
yourself, to be totally self-mastered, you must live your life in such a way as to never
cause harm or diminishment to any other living thing. None of us has made it to that.
We all harbor thoughts of prejudice, and bias, and dislike, and downright envy, and
vengefulness and sometimes hatred. And we can get pretty violent. We can get doggone
angry.
Remember the Teachers told us that our words are like pebbles dropped in a pond -- the
ripples go on and on and on. Our actions are like this. We may think that we are
influencing only the individual that we are speaking with or acting with. But that is not
true. It ultimately affects not only all of the human race and all of the Earth, but all of the
Solar System and all of the Universe.We don't realize how important we are. The
Initiate does. Therefore the Initiate can keep silent. The Initiate feels no need to let other
people know how smart he is. The Initiate does not need the admiration, does not need
the validation, does not need others to condone what he thinks, does, or is.
LEN: A question. The Initiate has to start somewhere. And Initiate doesn't all
of a sudden just realize what all these concepts are. Is there a beginning before he
becomes an Initiate?
GLORIA: Sure. Aren't you becoming? (LEN: I'm not sure.) The beginning is
back at the Absolute, at the Omega Point, at the Divine Germ Cell. But where would you
say is the beginning point in a cycle? There is no beginning and no end. You always
were and you always will be.
JNANA: The beginning is where you acknowledge it to be.
GLORIA: Yes. You can choose to start anywhere you want. And for you, that
will be the beginning. But you can't choose my beginning and I can't choose yours.
We must consider ourselves all as becoming. We are being what we are right now. With
every word I speak, with every look you exchange, with every body part language you
are changing where we are and what we understand. Moment by moment by moment is
change. There are insights and realizations, whether or not they come out here is not
important. As long as they are, that's what's important. And that's what "go with the
flow" means. Don't demand that the next moment conform to what you want it to be. If
you are living your life on PURPOSE, you will do -- I hesitate to say "the right thing",
because that shows bias. ("appropriate" is suggested) OK Very good. Especially under
Michael and the Law of Dominance, to appropriate the right thing, the appropriate thing.
STUDENT: It isn't the same for everybody.
GLORIA: No. It is not and cannot be the same for everybody anymore than your
fingerprints are the same, or your lip prints are the same, or your DNA. You are totally
100% unique. That's what Raphael is all about. That's what "Divine Process" means --
that we all are different, that everything is different. Every snowflake is different from
every other snowflake. Every fiber in the rug is different from every other fiber. There
are no two things identical. There are replications, and some are better than others. We
replicate ourselves in our children, and we recognize that our children don't have the
same color hair, the same color eyes, the same shape of the nose. You can have any
number of children, and they can all look completely like they don't even belong to you.
And you wonder where in the world did this child come from. And you know where it
came from, but you don't really. Some arrive full blown and wise, and some arrive
completely dependent, which requires a great deal of growth and love and giving on your
part. That's all part of the cycle. But if you are on the INITIATORY PATH, you will
recognize that PURPOSE, and not just INSTINCT.
I think we need to get up and take a break -- I'm putting you all to sleep.
BETTY: I have a question. Two things come up. One is about self doubt. It is
my feeling that we have self doubt, and we might as well recognize it as being able to
take that step forward even when there is doubt. That may be the most important thing.
GLORIA: That's what I was talking about -- FORGIVENESS. Just because SELF
DOUBT has caused you to accomplish less than you desire to accomplish, does not mean
that you don't accept your accomplishment as the best that you could do, and go on from
there. But I'm talking about the full INITIATE. I'm not just talking about a pilgrim on the
path. The full Initiate has no self doubt. I'm just saying that as we are aware of having
self doubt, and that self doubt causes our failures, then we can go on and be more
confident and work on not doubting ourselves, making a connection with the SACRED
SELF so that we can move forward in all full consciousness of confidence and purpose.
BETTY: The other thing that I'm working on since the last retreat is: We talk
here about stepping forward as Initiates, not causing harm to anybody else. I like that; I'll
buy that. But I remember when I asked the Teacher, "How about the role of Hitler". She
was saying that he played a part; are you willing to play that part? In which case I would
like to not bother with that. But I think here that under the Law of Dominance in family
situations there are times of "tough love". We've got to do tough love, especially with the
kids.
GLORIA: But had the situation been different before that, tough love wouldn't
have been necessary. We have to go from where we are. If that's what the situation
requires, then you are giving that child a blessing by being "tough love".
BETTY: Isn't that possible under the Law of Dominance that situations are
always going to come up for the necessity of tough love? In one way or another, it's got
to be.
GLORIA: Yes. I started out tonight saying that our mission, if you will, is to
bring NETSOK -- you know NETSOK. And we must get on with that. We've got to
make that part of our PURPOSE -- living on Purpose. That doesn't mean that we are
going to arrive full blown in the new age as Initiates. We have to go with the flow of our
lives, which is many, many cycles of success and failure and try and try and try again,
and then do and do and do again.
MAXINE: This is always true. In one life you might fail and succeed, and fail
and succeed. (G: That's true.) At least I hope it's true.
GLORIA: My goal in our discussion here is to identify for you some of the
characteristics that you want to work towards developing for yourself, and to elucidate
those boogie men that keep you from doing it.
*** GLORIA: Do you remember when the Teachers were going to teach us
multi-dimensional thinking? The time has come for us to begin doing that. And the first
person that says "How" has set himself up for failure. OK. It's time for us to begin
multi-dimensional thinking. Don't ask, “How?” First step on the road: I can do it.
Right?
OK. What are we talking about in "multi-dimensional"? First of all, you are going to
think beyond your five senses. You're not going to allow your thoughts to be controlled
by what you can see, touch, hear, smell or taste. Those are limiting. Those are the limits
of the human body, and you must begin to think in terms of living your life as a spiritual
being in a human body. I don't believe there is anyone present tonight who does not
accept the fact that there are unseen higher, more highly evolved beings guiding us. Is
there anyone here that does not believe that you have access to higher guidance? You're
already multi-dimensionally thinking. Can you smell a higher realm? Can you touch it?
Can you taste it? Some people can see it; some people can hear it. But that doesn't limit
it.
MAXINE: Can you think it? I don't know whether I think it or see it. I almost
have to close my eyes if I see it.
GLORIA:That's exactly what I'm saying, Maxine.It is thinking beyond being
able to see it or smell it or hear it or taste it or feel it. Your imagination is the most
powerful self-empowering tool you have to work with -- your power to make images.
Now, we're sitting right here. We can look out and see lights and everything, but we can't
touch those lights. How do we know those lights are on? How do we know there is a
little town down here called Cascade Locks? It was there when you came through, but
what tells you that it's there right now? TRUST. Trust in your own higher powers of
thought, not that you see it or smell it or taste it. You trust your thought processes. That
is multi-dimensional thinking.
My brother still maintains that we never went to the moon. The spiritual being living in
the human condition lives with a feeling of connectedness. Now when we talk about
being alone on the mountain top, being in that eighth cosmic key (Singularity). If you are
living in the feeling of connectedness, then you know that you are not alone. So you
don't have to be alienated from humankind, but you don't need their validation. You
don't need that connection. That's just an extra dollop of joy for you to have human
companionship. But you don't need it.
The next one is a little bit tougher, because we have been taught by our scientific
discoveries of the last five or six hundred years that where there is an effect, there is a
cause; where there is an action, there is a reaction. You need to go beyond the physical
laws of science in your thinking. You must reach that point where anything is possible.
And it's possible without proof. You don't have to prove to anyone that it's possible.
Now if you are living on PURPOSE, you will be motivated by ethics, by serenity, by
quality of life. And when we get to talking about commitment and quality of life, we're
going to find some real heavy programming, because that comes in the area of death and
afterlife and continuation of life. And when does life cease for the human being? We
have a big can of worms here to work through. And we're not going to do it all in one
weekend, remember. This is just a step in the right direction.
You will find in living your life on Purpose that at least one period every day of QUIET
TIME every day is absolutely essential to your well being. You don't have to "meditate",
but you need a period every day when there are no distractions of the outside world -- no
radio, no TV, no other person -- just you and your Sacred Self. When you can exclude all
of the sensory perceptions in that stillness, you will know. And it will be one of the
grandest things that you have ever experienced. Then you will know what meditation is.
But it starts out with giving yourself the space to do that, the time to do that. You have to
give yourself permission, then you have to make it in Purpose, and then you have to live
on that Purpose. Then you have to see to it. You owe yourself that. You deserve that.
As you give yourself that quiet time, you're going to find that your intuitive juices flow
more readily. You begin to recognize input of the Sacred Self. You begin to recognize
subliminal communication with other human beings. You begin to experience subliminal
spiritual communication with spiritual beings. And all it takes is just that quiet time.
You don't have to go into any ritual.You don't have to follow any particular guidelines --
you just have to give yourself the quiet time to do extra sensory perception.
Then, instead of focusing on the things that you don't want in thought, or the things that
you are against, or "it's all the fault of the government", or if I didn't have to pay taxes, or
what if something else.Focus on what you are for. I am for love. I am for
demonstrating affection. I am for having all the physical things that I want for my
comfort. I am for communicating with my Source. I am for having joy, fun, laughter,
love, understanding, accomplishment, peace, serenity.
Some of the work you are going to do in your group will be to establish what it is you are
for in this life -- not what you are against. Then, another parameter, if you are going to
be living on Purpose, is learning to live as a free person, not as a citizen of the United
States or of Germany or of South Africa or the State of Oregon or the City of Portland.
You need to think of yourself as a citizen of this Universe if you are going to be free, if
you are going to be SELF MASTERED. That doesn't mean that you don't do the
necessary -- Render unto Caesar that which is Caesar's and let him hang himself -- that is
his problem. But you as a free person live as a citizen of the Universe. That means --
how many realms are there in the Universe down to Self? How much does that give you
to live in? Doesn't that blow your mind? When you say, "Oh, I'm a citizen of the United
States", what does that do to you? Oh boy, that means I'm a taxpayer, and I can only
drive 55 mph with a seat belt on. You begin to feel controlled. But as a citizen of the
Universe, you are not controlled. You render to Caesar voluntarily what you want to
render to him. Do you understand what I'm talking about? If I don't want to drive 55
mph, I don't drive 55 mph.
MAXINE: Does the Universe put any limits on anything or does the Universe
grant absolute freedom?
GLORIA: No, it is not absolute freedom. We have previously talked about some
of the restraints. You live your life without diminishing or harming any other living
thing. There is a restraint -- there are moral and ethical codes that are limiting, but they
are self-imposed. You do that for yourself, not because there is a government or a family
member, or a thug forcing you to do it.
BETTY: I found that my thinking was very limited on that until I read Lynne
Andrew's book -- I don't want to kill a chicken, I don't want to kill a fish, I don't want to
do this. When she went out working with her teacher, the teacher said, "You've got to
learn to fish". She said, "No, I don't want to.You've got to learn where your food
comes from, and you've got to honor it." She pointed out you dig the worms, you use the
worms to catch the fish, you take the fish and eat it. You leave the rest for something
else, for the other animals. And that nourishes your body, and when you die, you go into
the ground and the worms eat you. I think we've got to think in terms of that rather than
just the limitation that it is.
GLORIA: That's right. The Teachers told us that if we do not use food animals
that were reared to be food animals, we are denying them fulfillment of their destiny.
BETTY: Don't we need to move that to other things too?
GLORIA: Oh, of course. They're not limiting us to that. The Teachers have never
limited us to anything.
BETTY: What I'm saying is that the same thinking there can be in other truths.
GLORIA: That's right. That's our responsibility to expand our thought into
universal thinkers. Think as a citizen of the Universe.
GAYLA: Does that mean that we make the choices ourselves, instead of making
choices that we're forced to.
GLORIA: Yes. We can say it's the government's fault, but it's really our choice.
GAYLA: And it's really our choice and we're acknowledging the fact that it's our
choice.
GLORIA: That's part of it. But it is living in all those realms.
GAYLA: But still it comes down to saying, "I choose to live like this, to do this,
to live by this rule and this rule because we choose to and not because we simply have
to."
GLORIA: That is exactly what I was trying to get across.
LEN: That doesn't say there are no ramifications to free choices.
GLORIA: Nobody said we weren't going to deal with consequences. I just
haven't gotten that far yet. (laughter)
The last one goes along with what you were saying. You live knowing that you create
your own miracles. There is no such thing as happenstance. There is no such thing as
luck. Everything is in the flow. Everything works with everything else. There is no such
thing as randomness -- there is order. The only place, if we can call it that, there is
randomness is in the ABSOLUTE. The Absolute brought order to a portion of itself in
order to bring forth the DIVINE GERM CELL at the OMEGA POINT. That's where
order began, and we are the result of that. So we will always have order until the
Absolute (inhales) and sucks it all back in.
BETTY: And couldn't that just be an order that is beyond our thinking?
GLORIA: Could be. But the Teachers introduced the Absolute to us as a "No
Thing", as an unidentifiable, limitless.
MAXINE: Don't we now live knowing that we make our own flow, don't we do
that now?
GLORIA: I don't think so -- not everyone -- very few do. Most people find
someone else to blame for the mishaps, the mis-chances, or lapses, or negatives in their
lives. Very few people take personal responsibility for the circumstances of their lives.
MAXINE: Mainly, we just see it in other people -- we don't see it in ourselves.
GLORIA: We'll find out when we start working in groups. OK, have you chosen
your groups?
JEAN: May I make a suggestion? (G: Certainly.) Why don't we let the men
choose? (laughter) That way each woman will have the experience of a man in the
group.
GLORIA: Why is that necessary, Jean?
JEAN: Because I would like it. (uproar)
GLORIA: This is a non-dominant situation. I am not appointing -- it's up to you
to choose. Four groups of 4.
(Adjourned to groups. Reassembled about 9 p.m. for Len and Gayla’ wedding
ceremony.)
GLORIA: (In her long purple formal) I have some news. The NETSOK
FELLOWSHIP is a recognized entity, now authenticated by the IRS -- talk about the Law
of Dominance. The Teachers have told me a long time ago, it was time for a Washington
church to be started. I was trying to find a name for it. Christ Light Community Church,
of which I am an ordained minister, just doesn't do it for me. I'm sorry, but that's the way
it is. I thought of Temple of Light, and I thought of Church of Temple of Light, and I
thought of all kinds of things. Netsok Fellowship absolutely said it for me. We all know
who Netsok is. We know what Netsok represents, and the fellowship concept was ideal
for the kind of entity I envisioned as a church-like organization. But it was necessary to
do the governmental thing and get the federal ID number, and set up the bank account.
As you all know, I've been running Temple (Publications) funds through my own bank
account, which means that it appears to IRS as my income. Several times I've had to
justify to them that was not my income, it was just passing through -- showing where it
came from and where it went. So that problem now will be solved with the Netsok
Fellowship in Washington. So I thought you would like to know that. Naturally, as
founder of the church, I am the Minister of that Church also. (voice: There's a real
coincidence for you.) So you won't be hearing Christ Light Community Church much
any more.
Tonight I am still functioning as a minister of that Church. And Len and Gayla are going
to ... sanctify their commitment to each other in your presence. So I thought that we
would keep it a surprise and have some fun out of it. I didn't realize the script was going
to be so small. Joni, would you get my glasses.
I wanted to ask several people in the group to provide some music. But I couldn't keep it
a surprise if I did that, and I love surprises. OK.
MARRIAGE CEREMONY
Dear sisters and brothers in Hadiki, we gather together at this moment in time to bless
and honor the union of two lives. With due consideration and earnest thought, Gayla and
Len have made a commitment to each other and now come before us to make known
their declaration and receive the blessing of sacred and human approval of their contract.
We now receive the groom. (applause)
Len, this red flower is for strength. Rosemary is for remembrance. The sage is for
wisdom. And the thyme is for endurance. Ladies and gentlemen, the groom. (applause)
Let us receive the bride. (applause)
In your bouquet you will find a red flower for strength, lavender for spiritual insight,
woodruff for magic arts, and parsley for purity. Now if you will give Kim your bouquet.
And Kim, you go and stand by Jeff.
Len and Gayla, you come now before me in the presence of this Hadiki family, the
Temple officials, and other unseen guests from the higher realms, to enter into a contract
of love, honor, and sharing your most intimate selves. Let us take a moment therefore in
common accord to invoke the Divine blessing.
Holiest of Divine beings, grace this day with a blessing of abundant love. Let the spirit
of joy and light be among us as we witness the sacred vows about to be given. May the
spirit of peace reign in the hearts of all assembled here, that in time to come our memory
of this day will renew our sense of happiness and give hope for the future. And so shall it
be.
The Teachers have told us to consider carefully the terms of any contract into which we
enter. For we are bound by the hierarchical laws to keep our agreements. The condition
and behavior of marriage partners has seldom been better set forth than in the words of
"The Prophet" by Kahlil Gibran:
"You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore. You shall be together
when the white wings of death scatter your days. Aye, you shall be together even in the
silent memory of God. But let there be space in your togetherness. And let the winds of
the heavens dance between you.
"Love one another, but make not a bond of love. Let it rather be a moving sea between
the shores of your souls. Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup. Give one
another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf. Sing and dance together and be
joyous, but let each of you be alone, even as the strings of a lute are alone though they
quiver with the same music.
"Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping. For only the hand of Life can contain
your hearts. And stand together yet not too near together: For the pillars of the temple
stand apart, And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow."
Having given due thought to this matter, are you then ready to make your pledge?
(affirmative answers)
I hand you this glass of red wine, symbol of your physical union. Now while the wine is
fresh, it is flavorful and fragrant. However, with age and without care, it can turn bitter
and sour. As you two share this wine, let it be a thoughtful reminder to take care of each
other, to keep your daily physical lives well tended, so life together will be robust and
filled with the joy of each other.
I hand you this glass of white wine, symbol of your spiritual union. Today it is rich and
sweet. With maturity and care it mellows to a sustaining full-flavored communion
between each of you with the other and both of you with your spiritual source groups and
the beings of higher realms.
Today is very propitious. It is Friday, the day of Venus, the Goddess of Love and
prosperity. Today's date is February 25. The numbers bless your union with two, the
month of February being the second month of the year, lending objectivity, polarity, and
complement all elements natural to successful partnership. The 25 reduces to 7 which
represents spirituality in human form. Today promises all blessings of a truly spirit-filled
partnership.
Gayla, will you take Len as your full and equal partner in life, physically, mentally,
emotionally, and spiritually, to love him, cherish him, honor and nurture him? (GAYLA:
I do.)
Len, will you take Gayla as your full and equal partner in life, physically, mentally,
emotionally, spiritually, to love her, cherish her, honor her and nurture her? (LEN:
Absolutely.) Good for you.
The ring is symbolic of the wholeness of nature, the never-ending cycle from Alpha the
Absolute to Omega the Created, back to the Absolute, the eternal cycle of life. The ring
is a symbol of abundant life and infinite love. In the giving and receiving of these rings
lies the symbol of creation and eternal life, for in union is another created. From the
moment of your final vows, you will no longer be entirely separate beings, but part of a
single whole. As no part of this ring can exist separate from the ring itself, so you cannot
stand separate from your marriage and still be a part of it. In the giving and receiving of
these rings, each one of you symbolically commits to being part of a greater whole.
Marriage is the most sacred of all commitments made by one human being to another.
By the nature and power of the Absolute, I bless these rings to be always a reminder of
the promises made this day.
Len, place this ring on Gayla's finger and repeat after me: "With this ring I give you my
promise to love you with all my heart, to hold you with honor and respect, to cherish you
in illness as well as in health, to share with you whatever I have, be it little or much, to
comfort you in sorrow and disappointment, to celebrate with you in triumph and joy, to
live with you in peace and devotion. This promise I give in good faith." (done)
(to Gayla) Place this ring on Len's finger and repeat after me: " With this ring I give you
my promise to love you with all my heart, to hold you in honor and respect, to cherish
you in illness as well as in health, to share with you whatever I have, be it little or much,
to comfort you in sorrow and disappointment, to celebrate with you in triumph and joy, to
live with you in peace and devotion. This promise I give in good faith." (done)
Both of you now having accepted each other on the terms stated in this contract, and
having given and received each the promises of the other in the presence of this company,
sealing your word with the exchange of rings, with the power vested in me by the church
of which I am a minister, I now pronounce you husband and wife, wife and husband.
You may kiss each other.
Ladies and gentlemen, I give you Mr. and Mrs. Len Ramska.
GAYLA: Thank you everybody, just for being here.
BETTY: Do we all get to get up and hug and kiss now?
GLORIA: Please. Do something. (great hilarity)
(A reception with champagne, toasts, and wedding cake followed.)
Closing Meditation
GLORIA: (Instruction to do rolling Ah Oo Mm's. Done)
Feel the vibrations of the voice sound as a sea around you -- warm, comforting, gentle,
supportive. Feel treasured by that sound. ... Now affirm with me, "I am a beautiful
being." (done three times) Feel the meaning of that permeate your whole body. Feel the
vibration of the sound going through the muscles of your legs, through the muscles down
your back, through the muscles of your neck. Feel it lifting your chin, lifting your
shoulders, expanding you, elevating you, giving you rise. Let's do it again. "I am a
beautiful being." (done 3 times)
Feel how that lifts your spirit, the heart of you. Expand your lungs, and you breathe more
deeply. You sit more-straight. Your head balances on your shoulders more gently and
easily. And peace spreads throughout your entire body. And your mind grows calm...
Now let's affirm together, "I am love." (done 3 times) Feel the warmth of that at the
center of your being. Feel the warmth of that in your heart organ, in your heart chakra, in
your solar plexus. Your whole body thrills with love -- love for yourself, love for this
Earth, love for the whole world of which you are a part. At this moment, as you are love,
everything is perfect...
Now let's affirm, "I am connected with my SACRED SELF". (done 3 times) Just be
silent for a moment or two and feel that connection. You may feel a warmth in your
crown chakra. You may feel a lifting and rising sensation...
Now let's affirm, "Through my Sacred Self I connect with my world". (done 3 times)
Now feel the energy moving, not only upward, but coming in from above you and
moving through your body and out through your solar plexus. And you begin to feel a
connection with everyone in this room. And then it goes beyond the room, and you feel a
connection with your orb. Feel that wholeness of which you are a part. Now let that
feeling of wholeness spread and spread and move outward from you like the light that
goes from the sun, outward in all directions.
And now affirm with me, "I am a light in my world". (done 3 times) Feel the joy of that
statement. Feel connected with it. Feel the excitement of it... Know the blessing that
you are in our world. And as you know the blessing that you are in the world, you
become aware of how much you appreciate yourself, how glad you are to be alive in your
world. How exciting it is to have such a challenge, to be alive in your world...
And as you begin to sense that challenge, you know "I Am." Affirm with me now. (done
3 times) ... Bring your hands together in front of your heart chakra, and rub your palms
together a little bit. And as we all go to our rest this night, let us know in our hearts how
happy we are to be together, how much we do love each other without judgment, without
consideration -- we simply love. And we are love, and thus we are love itself. And so it
is.
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